Traffic to my site was abnormally high yesterday, directed from two different links. Cursed was me on that day, blessed was probably on my site with 200% increase of viewers. Half, apart from my own regular viewers and google's stumble upon were from Mr. Wee's
The Bitch Is Back, Talk-talk's comment column and clare's.
People are obviously talking over there. I choose not to defend myself from people's opinions and thoughts, it's not a war and it's not my war on quick to judge people. It's more graceful to acknowledge my mistake and get over with it. My apologies post was also published on FB and nuffnang innit immediately. I've admitted my fault, my conscience is clear
in the face of rumors and slanders targeted at me on Mr. Wee's post.
Here's the referring URL:
http://suituapui.wordpress.com/2009/09/13/the-bitch-is-back/ from my sitemeter for your interest.
I would like to clear what was assumed by Mr. Wee about me using many nicks, anonymous that sounds like me, it's a 'guessing game' I had a painful experience before on kscb. I'm sensitive with the issue.
But first, in today's freedom of speech, what we view as harsh and rude words are 'cool' words to the aghast youngsters. Among their own circular norm of society, they nick named themselves 'bitch' which is a cool term. Today the meaning 'bitch' has expanded, in Wiki, 'bitch' in a feminist context can indicate a strong or assertive woman, one who might make men feel threatened. When applied to a man, 'bitch' is a derogatory term for a subordinate.
It was 911I don't usually read clare's personal blog but would drop by once in a blue moon, I remember the first time I went there was the title, 'Kampua Talk' when I was searching Sibu resource on Internet. All I know about her blog is she write good articles. The last post I went to was her link featured on The Borneo Post about her childhood schooling days. My routine blogs reading was usually clicking on someone's side bar's blog list like Sarawakiana, Yan On Second Thoughts, Rubber Seeds and Borneo Tips, some blog comments are particular requiring sign-in, I'm on blogspot, automatically I'm signed in as jg or jane. I don't disguise as anonymous, although I used (='.'=) catface on HB's blog a lot once upon a time, until someone went to fight a battle with me on HB's blog I stopped commenting there for a while but I did realise I use jg or jane (unregistered) lately. My IPS is fix, it's DIGInet, if you know how to trace IPS. Probably the only 1 or 2 in Sibu.
Back to 'it was 911', it was Friday noon, as usual I did my routine blog reading habit, jumping from one blog to another and most posts were about 911, I remember clearly I was on Mr. Wee's blog (Mr. Wee was never known as stp to me) I guess it was my unlucky day, I typed stp on clare's comment after I'd read hers. It was a condolences.
Back on my mind, I remember a post I just read. It was about the author's mother. She'd passed on for 100 days on 911, the post was dedicated to a mother. I was touched by the way she write. I remember clearly the picture of her mom siting on the bed, smiling. It was her love for her mom. That was on my mind when I was on clare's blog, it registered in my head 911 is about the saddest tragedy to remember.
Mr. Wee seems to remember a lot on my comments that I don't, I have commented probably a few hundreds on blogsphere so far practically on blogspot as blogspot to blogspot does not require me to sign-in. One that I remember so well was a post on 'Perpustakaan Bergerak' Mr. Wee posted about a missing letter on 'Perpustakaan' as if they can't spell the word. I can't remember which letter but I commented after the post. Something like, 'they don't need more dictionaries, it was probably a notorious kid's work peeling off one of the letter'. All they need is to replace the missing letter, I don't believe they can't spell 'Perpustakaan'.
The blur pictures I can remember so clear was on
arwenskingdom's blog. She stated, all her photos were taken with Sony Camera, they were blur and I'm a Sony's fan. I felt embarrassed for Sony, it was my natural instinct, I dropped her a comment, 'eh, your picture so blur...' followed by some tips telling her to try 'anti-shake' was that an offensive remark? It wasn't meant to offend her. On her following update, I returned to her blog and saw her thank you's reply, next to my comment was Mr. Wee's comment, I thought to myself, 'eh, Mr. Wee also come here ka?' I probably did comment on his blur pictures, I totally can't remember, the fact is they were blur with handphone cam, the last I went there the pictures were great and nice isn't that a change? I didn't know he's sensitive with such comments. People love reading good blog with clear pictures, but I guess not many can take comments. Perhaps mine sounded blunt, he doesn't like me.
All I know about Mr. Wee's blog is his good English, an English major if I'm not wrong, (please correct me) in education field. I'm a person with interest in learning, most of the time I take advantage in reading to improve my English from someone I know with good English speaking background like Sarawakiana, Yan, Rubber Seeds and Mr. Wee as the older bloggers use proper English, words like 'bitch', 'fuck', 'wtf' and 'knncbb' are eliminated from their writing, it makes reading comfortable. The new generation however take that kind of words as so cool. You'd stumble a lot on today's youngsters freedom of speech's blogs misusing of words. They'd call anyone stands in their way a bitch, a slut and a whole, fuck anything they want to fuck, they feel cool about it. They are unconscious of their own actions most of the time. They are so-called the 'cool' generation.
I was kept wondering why clare didn't notify me of my mistake, but I guess who am I that she would do so. I can understand the bond of friendship between clare and Mr. Wee are strong, no doubt clare would stand as a friend all the way for Mr. Wee. If it was not for the sitemeter, I'm left cursed forever. It was already 10.30pm when I realised something was wrong, I was frantically looking for 'delete the message' button to save the day but it was too late. I looked for clare on my MSN only to realise I haven't downloaded my MSN on my new Sony. I went to Mr. Wee's blog hoping to drop him an apologies note, darn! it was too late. The post was already up, published with the title, 'The Bitch Is Back'. DARN! since when am I his bitch?
I wanted to call HB, the only person I know from Sibu could possibly be keeping Mr. Wee's phone numbers to call for clarification. It was really my unlucky day, his number is not in my new phone's memory, it was in the old phone with swelled battery. Nothing can be done anymore.
Honestly, I lost my respect for a man who was supposed to set an example for today's kids in regard to netiquette and proper writing especially when you are in the education field. On the other hand he was quick to judge. Sorry I was misunderstood. Mr. Wee was hurt by my unintended comment but care-less enough to seek clarification first before publicly calling me a bitch on his blog. I can understand how he felt that instant after he received sms from clare. I feel for him, I'm sorry. I know how hurt it's when someone talk about your mother. My parents do teach me about respect. The malay has, 'syurga di telapak kaki ibu'.
I do feel very-very bad about the incident. Sibu is only a town, generally speaking if you are a food person, eat out often in Sibu, chances are 80% out of 100% you will bump into each other not counting the functions, the church on Sundays and shopping malls. My mom who doesn't read blogs may one day say, 'that's Mr. Wee your former tuition teacher, go and greet him'. I wouldn't be able to tell my mom, I can't..... I'm a bitch.
Though I am personally discouraged. I sense in my heart, the verse I've not forgotten, "Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? My soul is downcast within me; therefore I will remember You."
