Novelty in Dreams

Today is the eve of CNY. We have decided not to hassle ourselves with the cooking and have ordered eight course meal from a restaurant for the dinner and catered some food for the open house. So, instead of looking busy, I'm rather 'restless' for feeling I'm free, free from market hassle, free from peeling onions, shallots and garlic kind of chores to get the feel of participating in CNY mood around the house.

I woke up with a mindset, 'a lot of things needed to be done...' but instead I turned on my laptop and browsing through some online news. Global financial crisis is gripping the world, tipping the world into a recession and on the earlier news 50,000 civil service contract staff to be laid off after Chinese New Year. On local Chinese daily today says, we must not use 恭喜发财 'kong sii fatt chai' this year to greet others as 'chai' has a sound alike as 'retrench' in mandarin. Hmmm...

On the other account, a night before I had a dream, I left my laptop at a bakery kitchen while attending to give new staffs some baking tips. I reached home with all kind of worries submerged in my mind all about my laptop and all important data inside. Then I had a novelty dream I frequently have with different episode of drama each time like was written in a novel, puzzled me:

Aaron was only less than a year old when I found myself pregnant again shortly after Luke has gone to a better place far away. I can't cope with the lost and was traumatised, was on the verge of a nervous breakdown when my in laws, fearing for Aaron's safety took custody over Aaron and I was not allowed to see him. From time to time, I would come by my in laws' house looking only from a distance at my son Aaron with a shattered heart. I would say, 'my baby will never going to know that I'm his mom.' As time passes, my second child was born and before I had the chance to take a real good look at it, it was taken away by my in laws leaving me not even knowing what's my baby's gender and its name. My sister in law was a vicious woman.

One day, I came by demanding my in laws to return my children to me. My sister in law stood in the way threatening me with all kinds of malicious acts. That was the first time I saw my second child, it's a boy and he has one lazy eye. Aaron was playing in the yard, he has grown up so much and has started running. Looking at Aaron, I suddenly uttered out, 'Aaron has a look exactly just like Luke, he is so handsome.'

I don't know the drama's ending but it goes along with fighting for custody over my children. In real life, there is no Aaron, no Luke and no vicious in laws neither do I read emotional books except for John Crisham's books and motivational books neither do I have been watching a lot of emotional drama movies to have caught in such a dream. Oh, what a dream. Yeah! I said that myself when I woke up with heart palpitation, what a dream! The night before, I had a dream I was chased by a group of mob..... with machine guns, hand grenades and a lot of chasing and a night before, I was telling God, he doesn't care as much anymore.

This morning, I heard my 5yo nephew muttered, 'Oh, my gawd!' while he was on his computer game and puzzled me, where did he learn that from?